Now back to my confused state.... this doesn't always happen every time but, have you ever been in a situation where you are just confused? You don't know what to do? You don't know who to talk to? And it looks like the whole world is just ganging up against you?
Well this is the state I am in. I am confused, but then again I ask my self why? Wasn't I supposed to do all that I did?
Did I make a mistake along the way? What is it actually?
After fretting up and down, I have come to the conclusion: "I am going on a research rampage". All the people I have talked to say : " go on with the plan". I know this is a decision I need to make, it may hurt a lot of people, it may not, but I know it's the right thing to do.
I feel so awful, but I have to make that decision.
I feel so bad, but I know it's for the best
I feel so alone, but I know that no matter what, I will always have a FRIEND
I feel so afraid because I am scared of what people are going to say, but then I have searched my conscience and I know that I have done the right thing.
I am leaving now because it is time to take the decision, I don't know if I should let you know or not, but I will try.
I will keep you posted for I know you will console me when it burst.