Goodafternoon girls! Am so sorry its been a while, my close friends came into town and I was carried away, with all the gisting and story telling. Do forgive me and i'll make it up to you this week.......My secret today has to do with emotions...... I have learn't that emotions determine the outcome of your day or how you perform your activites. I woke up today feeling very moody....with my friends around it was so easy to push the thoughts away and get distracted, but as the house grew quiet the thoughts ran back in, into my heart to torment me.......I thought to myself why me? I havent done anything to deserve this.......I have counted and counted almost everybody i know has moved on with their lives.......but as for me am still waiting.....
don't get me wrong i am blest in my marriage and love it......what am talking about is something different. Something that always plagues the 'African woman'. You can imagine that i made sure i didnt go to church today, cos i didnt want to go there and cry my eyes out. If you must know am kind of rebeling, i want to run away from God, but where do i run to? nowhere i guess. I felt the Holyspirit tap me on the shoulder, to let me know he was still around waiting for me to come back....I know He wants me to know that its not by my strength but by the Spirit says the Lord.
From north to east to west i have traveled in search of solution and everywhere I go i get the same answer......there is nothing wrong with you.....you are blest.....just wait for God's time. Just wait and trust in Him, He is always Faithful.......
Days when I get messages like that am happy and refreshed, conquering the world isn't a big issue for me.....but when it is the time of the mouth and the pain comes i loose faith. It becomes difficult to believe, to hold fast to Gods words........
I have learnt not to be quick to give advice, cos no one ever knows why? Only God........ Nobody knows what he or she will do until they are in a difficult position......
But i will hold on and continue to hold on.......as someone once said......the word of the Lord stands it doesn't fail and it will never fail. He has said ....................be fruitful and multiply and replenish the earth................that is his command and so shall it be for me................
Do take care and like me it may not be easy but always hold unto the word of the lord..It will never fail...It may not be easy cos trust me we live in a country where people will never mind their buisness................never mind them and just hold on...........
Have a lovely sunday afternoon with your family today....make sure you have fun cos life is too short to suffer.
