FEELING DOWN

You know there are just some days when you don't feel right. Your mood is terrible and you are wondering are you good enough? Today I feel that way. I woke up happy and excited, but it was short lived. I got a mail this morning that an assignment I had submitted didn't make it. Questions ran through my head like.......How good am I in what I do? Is it that I don't know what I am doing? Maybe I am not good enough to venture into this world alone. Maybe I am not cut out to be a writer. Maybe I should just pack up my bag and forget all this talk about being my own boss, doing my own thing and making money from it.

Right now the encourager needs encouragement. The writer needs inspiration, the wife needs love, the woman needs acceptance, the child needs to know that she is good, hardworking and can do anything she sets her heart to do. As it stands I am confused and I don't know what to do or say. How do I start all over? What do I do? I put a lot into this, only for me to loose it.........Oh God help me. You are the only one that can console me..........

I CAN DO IT

Everyday I read about extraordinary things people do and things being accomplished and I wonder what is wrong with me. Why can't I do what they are doing? Sometimes it very clear what I want in life, but when the pressure comes I don't know what I want any more. I know I want to be different things, I know I want to be a writer, but as it stands now my back aches so badly, I haven't even had my first salary as a writer, the contract I was hoping for doesn't seem to be forth coming. I say to myself is it worth it. I want to be very rich, travel the world, make an impact in the world, but as it stands, I am not even sure what I have in my bank account. How then can I travel the world? Make an impact in the world? I see a blogger and then I hear, oh she has 20,000 followers daily and then I say to myself what does she write that I cannot write. People who are at the very top, what do they do that I do not? How many heads do they have? How many cells do they have in their brains?

Often times we get so discouraged that we don't want to continue again. We are so frustrated that life just doesn't seem fair. Someone said that sometimes reality is to painful to bare, sometimes illusion is the way forward. Yes we can have choose to live in a fantasy world or we can chose to see reality as it is and try to make the most of it.

After my hours of self pity, I have risen to tell you that no matter what I am not giving up. I have a passion for what I am doing and I will continue to do it. I know nothing good comes easy, but I will develop the patience to wait.

Everybody has one life time to live, make sure you achieve all that you set out to do, before it is to late.

P.s: this week do something extraordinary. Pick up that book and read, enroll for that course, start that business, learn how to drive a car or ride a power bike. Whatever you have a passion for do it now before it is too late.

INSIGNIFICANT BUT VALUABLE

Hello, everybody i am so sorry i haven't been in touch and i am very sorry about it, but i want to promise you that i will not stay away this long ago. I am here today to talk about some extraordinary news i just received a while ago. I found out that a woman in lagos who had been selling akara (beans cake) for a living, has been able to use this means to feed her children, pay their school fees (in good private schools), build her house and take care of herself. I asked my self how could this be? For me this is one of the most fascinating story i have ever heard. The woman said that she makes between fifteen thousand Naira to forty thousand Naira a day. How is this possible? if she makes let's say fifteen thousand Naira a day in a month she earns four hundred and fifty thousand Naira, that's the salary for an average oil company staff, she earns even higher than a banker. If she makes twenty thousand Naira a day in a month she earns six hundred thousand Naira, if she makes forty thousand Naira a day in one month she earns 1,200,000naira. Unbelieveable. There are a lot of incredible things happening in this country. If she makes that amount does she need to work for anybody? if you ask me i will say a big NO. Nobody is going to pay her that amount.

After listening to this story i am here to talk about the opportunities in this country. In spite of the corruption, the poverty, the fraud success sprouts out from corners one never sees.

I take my leave now. I am going to think of my life and the things i can do to make money. The insignificant things that are being over looked but very useful. I urge you to go and search for what you can do. Everybody has something insignificant that the creator has given, look for it and you will find it.

Please note this: " women are the best people to invest in".

GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS...........

For the past one week I had been very excited because I was finally going home to my family....my itinerary was well mapped out and i was checking out from Charles De Gaulle airport on the 31st of january, which is today......Saturday night i took the night train from Perpignan as planned. I was one hour early even though the train station was just a stone throw from where i was staying.......... The train was a train with beds and cabins, i got to my cabin, quickly choose my bed, arranged my stuff, excited that i was going to see my "baby" after a long while.....ten minutes later my journey began and i was floating in cloud nine thinking of all the goodies waiting for me...... As we commenced our journey we stopped at different stations to pick passengers, some of them being my temporary roommate...... One of my temporary roommate was an interesting lady, a mother of two maybe in her early fifties.......Immedaiately he got into the cabin she started talking, she told me a little about her family and her career. We talked for a while till it was time to go to bed. By 6.30 a.m. i was awake, waiting earnestly for the announcement saying that we had gotten to Paris, when the train conductor suddenly announced that he was sorry but the train was delayed by 2 hours......... 2hours...that meant i had missed my flight......

Confused and upset i started crying..........i was asking God what i was going to do?.....i was nervous, frustrated and above all stranded in a strange land with no family............my friend in the train told me to calm down....how was i to calm down i just had money for a taxi to the airport and that was it. Missing my flight meant i was obligated to sleep in a hotel in Paris, change my booking which was extra money and to crown it all banks weren't open, so no body could pay money into my account..............

In the midst of my confusion God worked "this french lady who i had just meet, who didn't even believe in God, but in some chinese religion, who was just feeding from hand to month gave me 50 euros.....

Now you have to understand that for the average person here 50 euro is one week's salary......I told her that i would pay, she just told me to take it, add to what i have and sort myself out.......

Her gesture thought me this that God can use anybody be it a witch, a native doctor, a christian, a thief, whoever to achieve the purpose he Has for His children.........

He really works in mysterious ways trust me : " God will never forsake you, just always trust in Him and never let go"

Ca va tout le monde?

whats up Lilies? i guess we are all working towards achieving our goals this year. Like my good friend just said this month is fast ending, and that's how this year is going to be......its time to start making it, and working towards your achievements, no procrastination allowed.

Anyway, its so funny how much you learn when you travel and your in you find yourself with different people, different believes and faith. Yesterday i meet for the first time in my life a colombian, very funny little girl, just 18 and she has crossed the world to come and achieve her dreams...... i thought to myself: what was i thinking of when i was her age...... i never thought of traveling or living my "so called life of security"... i was still maybe sucking my mothers breast.....lol....... traveling wasn't in my agenda, i just wanted to go to university, get a degree and after that work, marry, have kids and retire when i am 60.........i had this mentality for a while and i felt it was the best... but i realized that God has made all of us in his own image, with dreams and talents imbedded in us. These dreams and talents are usually supressed maybe because of our religion, our native beliefs........

I have learnt that God is not like that, God wants us as women to have dreams and achieve them...... i was asked this question how can a woman have a career and a family at the same time? honestly its almost impossible, but i have realized that being created in God's imagine, makes us superwomen..... and women everywhere have the ability to be multitasking.........think about it....... you can do all things........

notez bien: " marriage is not the end of your dream, instead its the beginning".....

take care of yourself and we will chat later........

p.s..... have a fantastic weekend and please try something extraordinary this weekend.......

Ca va?/How are you?

Hello Secret lilies how are you? Its been a while. I missed you all. How was your weekend, i hope exciting cos mine was fantastic although very cold. Anyway it was okay and i thank God for everything...........In my one week of being in france, going to class and meeting new people from different parts of the world with different ideologies and believes, i have come to observe that a lot of our youths no longer know God. In fact they have been so indoctrinated that it's had to find a believing youth now a days. Even in Nigeria, every sunday we go to church, we go for weekly activites, some of us are even workers but a lot of us don't know God. We don't have a personal relationship with Him. We accuse the Europeans, the Americans the Asians that they don't know God but we forget that we have a lot of religious people in our midst. They say " that nigerians are the most religious people on earth". One cannot be a christian without having a relationship with God....an intimate one.... every morning i try my best to talk to God and i try to listen..... when i listen and am still and not distracted i hear him. My question is how can one feel that one it doing the right thing? The way the world is now it's like being a confessing Christ is a werid thing. I ask my self how is it possible to bring up your child in an environment that doesn't regard God?....How will the child be able to defend his/her believe in Jesus Christ? In my search and question i realize that God is everywhere if you just look for Him. He is always there to help you, when life seems though or in spite of persecution.........Even though i may look stupid in class for being a christian or a child of God, i know that no matter what i must stand for the truth and nothing else. I must represent Christ everywhere i go and nothing else. Its not easy but with God all things are possible........

All the things happening in the world shows that devil is fighting seriously the righteous......but as is my motto ......with God all things are possible.......and i can make it in this world through Christ that strengthens me...

Dedication: " to all who feel discouraged at times,or life is difficult as a christian, don't worry most at times in His silence He answers and God will never leave you stranded He is always there..........

Take care and confess Christ to someone this week........

Happy New Year/ Bonne Annee

Hello lilies its been a while, oh don't fault me... been so busy during the festive period. My house was so full. Everybody came to my house for the holidays, from my little cousins to my brother to my aunty to my brother in law....the list goes on and on....but despite the crowd I enjoyed the company.........After all the dinning and partying January 1, 2010 has finally come. Its a year of new beginning, new dreams, goals........... this year much as we write down our goals we should make sure we accomplish every one of them...........now let me gist you a little about whats happening to me......

After all the hassle and bustle of the christmas break, I decided to take a break, so i went to France. 1. to practice the french language 2. to have a feel of the french culture. 3. to rest.

Yesterday 3/1/2010, at 5.30am i arrived Charles de Gaulle airport,Paris. i was a little nervous about the immigrations because of what that Nigerian almost did.......i am sure everybody knows what am talking about...........First of all we weren't given any landing cards......secondly when i got to the immigrations.....the guy just asked me this: vous allez ou? (where are you going) i told him, he just stamped my passport and told me to go.........you can imagine my joy.......

What struck me as soon as i got into Paris was the cold...... trust me its so cold out here which got me thinking : Nigeria is very blest. Our weather alone is the best thing God gave us......i now understand why they drink a lot of tea or coffee in films, its because of the weather. I have been here for just a day and i cannot count how many times i have taken either tea or coffee.

I asked myself why can't nigeria be like the developed countries? We have everything....if you ask me winter is a curse.... but the whites have turned this curse into a blessing while we turned our blessing into a curse.........in Nigeria we have everything, but yet we are one of the poorest nations in the world.......God please help Nigeria...............

For Nigeria to change we each have to change. if you want something changed you have to change yourself....start by obeying the law, obey the traffic lights, do not litter, don't use the phone while driving, use your set belts.......

Notez Bien: little things are the things that make the change in a relationship, family, society and country................... start now change yourself......Start now to pray for Nigeria.....i am positive that we will change for the better one day..... above all I can't wait to come home.

Take care of yourself and hopefully we will talk later......